My god Japan are fantastic. A week of listening to nothing but Duran Duran, and that's the conclusion I've come to.

Not that Duran Duran are not, in and of themselves, fantastic. It's just that I'm through with being surprised by how fantastic the Durans are, whereas I don't listen to Japan nearly as much as they deserve.

It's been a funny old week. A combination of the Duran Duran gig on Sunday night and the lack of classes & fixed RVR nights (term has finished and the gank group has logged off for christmas) has kicked me into that zone where, having spent too much time alone, obsessing about things, you feel like you have a bubble of something fizzy growing in your head and you don't know what to do about it. I have written some on the novel. I've put on a lot of eyeliner. I feel like I'm about to fly apart, and it's the most wierdly wonderful feeling. I don't want the bubble to burst, I don't want it to collapse back in on itself and leave me tired (what usually happens) I just want to stay, perfectly balanced, surface tension keeping me taut and shining, fragile as a breath.

Well, we'll see. We're off to Putters tomorrow to see the family for a week, and it will be difficult to hold onto any non-familyxmashurrahcake state of mind. Thank heavens for iPods and having an excuse to be anti-social. Yay novel!

Interesting threads from ILE:

On christian conservatives: http://ilx.wh3rd.net/thread.php?msgid=5618466#unread
On gays in SF: http://ilx.wh3rd.net/thread.php?msgid=5659214#unread

I'm 9k behind on NaNo and hungover from last night. KR organised a night out for me leaving and for SL's birthday. It was good. Big shout out to the law firm posse. Feel like hell now though, and don't know how to pick up the novel again. I got up at ten today and went back to bed at two, and slept until four. Hopeless.

P has done useful things in the kitchen (painting the back door). I spent my two wakeful hours sorting out my wardrobe.

Yesterday nextdoor moved out and today a new set of nextdoor moved in. A D.O.G. was spotted in the garden. I don't know if it was visiting or if it's part of the family. We hope the former, as the cats are less than keen on their canine counterparts.

Back from Djibouti, back from Soulby, finally time to settle a little. But so much to do! I am Nanoing again of course, and behind already. BH's picture arrived on Friday and I need to decorate the end of the hall so I can hang it, and I want to write a response to it and send it up to him. And I still want to give prints to other writers to respond to, if BH is amenable.

I have critiques to do and novels to read and I need to pick an essay title for my Christmas deadline essay, and get started on it. The examples we've been given are mind-blowing. Here's the frst one:

“The modern story-teller is necessarily ‘self-conscious’, to use Virginia Woolf’s phrase, not ‘natural’. The authoritative voice that speaks to the reader effortlessly is untenable and, if novelists need such a narrator, they must contrive it. Writer and reader fell from grace, or were stripped of their native innocence, long ago.” Discuss in relation to any two of the books read this term, and in relation to your own work in progress.

Actually I have some ideas about how I could answer that one.

I'm missing both our regular nights of RVR again this week; that'll be one night run out of eight possibles by the end of this week. Very depressing. Group is in some difficulty morale-wise, and me missing runs can't possibly be helping.

I've also promised HK I'll scan the pictures she took on the Week Away and turn them into a pictorial record, which we decided should also be expanded into an article for the website. And we need to get together to brainstorm how to transmit HC's workshops to the rest of the MNG, something I also volunteered to be a leader on. I want to take some of the pressure off HK; she really had a huge job to do organising the week away.

What is the etiquette on mentioning other people in a blog? I don't expect anyone to be reading this, but it is still theoretically public. Ho hum.

Ah. They are minor characters from Hamlet, brought to the fore by Tom Stoppard. http://www.sff.net/people/mberry/rosen.htp

It's so strange not being in the office. Not having a routine. Not starting my day with a barrage of emails and phone calls and greetings from colleagues, no morning trip out for tea-and-a-scone.

It's relaxing and one has this pleasant sense of freedom. Now, how is that conducive to getting anything done?

And I have many things to 'get done'. I've done my critiques for this week and I've read Remains of the Day, but I can't follow the course notes on it. For example, "Primacy of secondary characters, Rosencrantz & Guildenstern syndrome. Political and social implications?" I don't get the reference. I see Googling ahead. Hurrah for the Interweb, that's all I can say, or it'd be a day in the library for me.

So much time has slipped away. I forgot my blog. Amber forgot her blog too. I have been writing in notebooks; I rediscovered the visceral pleasure of pen and paper, and developed a certain truculence when it came to the typed word. I have resented emails in particular, but I also gave up MSN and IRC. In Camelot, we have taken to voice comms like birds to song, and I get terribly grumpy when asked to communicate via the chat window. It seems so primitive.

So this feels a bit funny.

Funny too, that when I last posted here I was exercising myself over The Boa Constrictor, to which I haven't added more than a paragraph or two in two years but which is still my burning flame. I've taken up (and put down again) Barbarian Queen in the mean time, but made scant progress with that either.

Because I've so singularly failed to finish anything, I've quit my job and I'm enrolling on an MA in Creative Writing tomorrow. It's very exciting, or it would be if they weren't so vague about the little details, like where you turn up to and when...